|
[11 Mar 2005|05:49pm] |
|
Yupp. so its been 5 yrs since my noni died....i still miss her...
|
|
| BOREDD |
[06 Mar 2005|01:32pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
N'sync-Sailing away |
] |
1. Full Name: Cayla
2. Were you named after anyone? My mom named me after her favorite soap operea character on days of our lives
3. School? Nashua high SOUTH!
4. Mascot: Panther
5. Nicknames: Cay, Cay-dogg hahaha
6. Birthday: April 7th
7. Grade: 11th
8. Height: 5'5"
9. Hair color: Brown
10. eye color: blueish/green
{i dunno what happened to 11 and 12... lol}
13. Siblings: 1 older brother and 1 younger sister
14. Last CD you bought: Britney Spears greatest hits.
15. Last Movie you saw in the theater: Boogeyman
16. Last Movie you rented: Troy
17. Favorite Subject: History
18. Least Favorite subject: Math
19. Do you really like math? Uh no
20. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No
21. Favorite actress: Jennifer aniston
22. Favorite actor: Colin farrell,orlando bloom,Brad pitt
23. Favorite Movie: Crossraods, On The Line, Top Gun
24. Favorite tv show: One Tree Hill
25. Favorite store: American Eagle
26. Do you do any drugs? No
27. How many people are on your buddy list? 193
28. What's your favorite sport? Baseball
29. Are you on any sports teams? no
30. How long are you in the shower? 15-20 mintues
31. Place to go on vacation: California
32. Favorite scary movie: Boogeyman
33. Favorite food: Wendys
34. Favorite color: Pink
35. Best feeling in the world: when your friends do something nice for you to make you really know that they care about you
*What do you think of when you hear...*
37. Bill Clinton: Perv
38. Love at first sight: I bealive it
39. Abortion: Thats fucked up.
40. Teenage smoking: Your cool.
41. eating disorders: Its your own problem
42. Guy bands: HOLY SHIT IM A TEENYBOPPER SO FUCK YES!
43. Death: i dont wanna die
44. Jerry Springer: He was actually mayor?
45. Rape: my number one fear
46. Suicide: Waste of time.
47. South Park: I dont watch that show
*When you hear this name, who do you think of*
50. Ryan: RYAN CABRERA IS THE MAN OF MY DREAMS!
51. Bob: The dad from full house his real name is bob saget
52. William: Coreys friend on thats so raven
53. stacie:'s mom
54. Brian: The cute kid from the breakfast club
55. Dan: from O-Town
56. Stephanie: The wrestler?
57. Matt: Leblanc
58. Jessica: Simpson
59. Heather: Kassies friend
61. Amy: i dont know a amy
62. Sara: whore
63. Brittney: Murphey
64. Chris: katten or howeevr u spell his name
65. Do you have a job? No
66. What college do you want to go to? Whatver will except me
67. Religion: Chatholic
68. Believe in heaven and hell?: yeah
69. Believe in Angels: yeah
70. believe in Aliens?: not sure about that one
71. believe in yourself: only sometimes
72. want to get married: someday
73. What do you do that makes your friends mad: Alot fo things that they just dont understand
74. What do your friends do that makes you mad: Nothing really
75. have any stuffed animals: yeah, tons
76. have any bad habits?: yeah tons lol
77. what's your favorite restaurant: Longhorn
78. wheres your favorite hangout? after school,Kritis house, amandas house
79. Pepsi or Coke? pepsi
80. letterman or leno: leno
82. MTV or VH1: MTV
83. Spice girls or All saints: SPICE GIRLS
84. Beverly Hills or Dawson's Creek: One tree hill
85. 7th Heaven or Party of 5: 7th heaven?
86. Diet pepsi or pepsi 1: Pepsi 1
87. Apples or Oranges: Appels
88. Chocolates or flowers: Chocolate
89. love song? Tue-Ryan Cabrera
90. Favorite sad song? Shes-Ryan Cabrera
91. silver or gold: silver
92. What do you think of the song pretty fly for a white guy? Its a cute song
93. are you a vegitarian? no
94. The last phone # you called? Kristi's cell
95. ever been on a plane? yeah
96. Ever gone swimming in the ocean? yeah
97. Ever gone skinny dipping? no
98. Ever cried in public? yeah
99. Ever let a friend cry on your sholder? NO im a bad friend and i wasnt there for them. OOps
100. fell asleep in the bath/shower? Yea
101. fell asleep eating? no haha
102. read the bible? I used to
103. gone to church? yeah
104. climbed a tree? yeah
105. watched Dawson's Creek? yeah, tons of times
106. gone sking? no
108. Fell asleep during a scary movie? no
109. gone all night w/o sleep? yeah, lots of times
110. been to camp? No
111. played soccer? Yea in school
112. been to a pro baseball game? YeA GO RED SOX!
113. Saw a pro basketball game? No
114. kissed a guy? yeah
115. sat in a restaurant w/o ordering? No.
116. eaten sushi? EWWW
117. eaten fish? EWWW
118. wanted to die? Yea a couple of times
119. met a celeb? </b>RYAN CABRERA</b>
120. met the President? No.
121. driven a car? yeah
122. didn't wash your hair for a week? yeah
123. broken something valuble? No.
125. used your parents credit card? No.
126. been scared to get a shot? yeah Still am
127. Gotten a cavity? No.
128. shopped at abercrombie & fitch? Yea.
129. shopped at the gap? Yea
130. shopped at old navy? Yea
131. thought you were in love? Yea i still am
132. had an on line relationship? no
133. watched MTV at 4 in the morning? Yea
134. Tipped over a porta potty? No
Ehh im really bored and dont know how to do a lj cut so DEAL with another survey
:x: name = Cayla
:x: piercings = Belly button
:x: tattoos = None but when im 18 its on lol
:x: height= 5'5
:x: shoe size = 9
:x: hair color = brown
:x: siblings = Kyle 18, Tori 7
LAST...
:x: movie you rented = Troy
:x: movie you bought = Top gun
:x: song you listened to = Nsync-I want you back
:x: song that was stuck in your head = sIR mIX aLOT-I like big butts
:x: cd you bought = Britney spears greatest hits
:x: cd you listened to = N'sync old school
:x: person you've called = Kristi
:x: person that's called you = Shawna
:x: tv show you've watched = Boy meets world
:x: person you were thinking of = Kristi
DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = I dont really know.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = No
:x: you think about suicide = Sometimes but im not about to go friggan kill myself.
:x: you believe in online dating = No
:x: others find you attractive = I dunno. My best freind kristi thinks so lol n amanda lol bUt doesnt reeally count if there girls lol
:x: you want more piercings = No.
:x: you like cleaning = kinda
:x: you like roller coasters = Not really
:x: you write in cursive or print = print
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = For
:x: using someone = against
:x: suicide = against
:x: killing people = against
:x: teenage smoking = Against
:x: driving drunk = Against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = you can love whom you want to love
:x: soap operas = FOR!
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl= yea when me and my best friend fought for like 2 months.
:x: ever cried over a boy = Yea. Still do.
:x: ever lied to someone = yes
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yea
:x: ever been arrested = No
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = Pantene Pro
:x: shoes do you wear = Addias
:x: are you scared of = Being raped and losing all my friends, and never being married.
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love?= once
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = once
:x: of hearts I have broken? = i dunno
:x: of girls I have kissed? = None
:x: of boys I have kissed? = Three
:x: of girls I've slept with? = i dont sleep with girls
:x: of boys I've slept with? = One.
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 4
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?= three when i was on sports teams
:x: of scars on my body? = One
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = One
favorite:
5 letter word: bitch
actor/actress: Jennifier aniston, Orlando bloom.
Candy: Skittles even tho it makes me sick
Cartoon: Recess
Cereal: raison bran
Chewing gum: Orbit
Color(s): Pink and purple
Color nail polish: Light pink
Day of week: saturday
Least fave day: Monday
Flower: Pink n white roses
Jello flavor: blue
Jewelry: Ring n belly button accesseries lol
Special skills/talents: I can dance?
Summer/Winter: Summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: swimming pools
|| Person who last.. ||
Slept in your bed: Amanda
Saw you cry: Kristi n amanda
Made you cry: My x
You went to the movies with: Kristi n korey
Yelled at you: My x
Sent you an email: el jayyy
|| Have you ever.. ||
Said "I love you" and meant it?: Yea. I still do.
Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yea
Kept a secret from everyone: Yeah
Cried during a movie: several times
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: UM YEA! WHAT KIND OF TEENYBOPPER DO YOU THINK I AM!Planned your week based on the TV Guide: no.
Been on stage: yEA
Been to New York: No i would have but noo i had drivers ed. Thank god that was over.
Been to California: No i was suppsed to but things happen
Hawaii: No. But i willl
Spain: No but i wanna
China: No
Canada: No.
Europe: No.
Asia: No
South America: No
Australia: No
Wished you were the opposite sex: No.
What time is it now?: 2:14 pm
Apples or bananas?: apples
Blue or red?: blue
Walmart or target?: target
Spring or Fall?: spring
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: Take a shower.
What was the last meal you ate?: A sub for lunch
High school or college?: High school.
Are you bored?: yessssssssss
Last noise you heard?: My nsync cd
Last smell you sniffed?: my perfume.
Last time you went out of state? Last saturday.
---------------------------------------+++++++++-------------------------------------------
A - Accent: Im american
B - Breast size: C
C - Chore you hate: I dont have chores.
D - Dad's name: Dont know my dad.
E - Essential make-up: Lip gloss
F - Favourite perfume/ cologne: Lilu from pac sun
G - Gold or Silver: Sliver
H - Hometown: Lynn, mass
I - Insomnia: No
J - Job title: I dont work
K - Kids: i want 2
L - Living arrangements: In my hosue with my mom.
M - Mom's birthplace: Lynn mass
O - Overnight hospital stays: Once.
P - Phobia: Im not sure.
Q - Favorite Quote: "Live today as it were your last"
R - Religious affiliation: catholic
S - Siblings: 1 brother, 1 sister
T - Time you wake up: 6:36
U - Unnatural hair colours you've worn: Brown
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Carrots
W - Worst habit: Biting my nails
X - X-rays you've had: Knee
Y - Yummy foods you make: I cant cook
Z - Zodiac sign: Aries.
|
|
|
[11 Feb 2005|09:06pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 chipper |
] |
I love Kristi Donna with all my heart and soul n i will never ever leave her! She is the bestest thing that has ever happened to me since ... CABLE! ahahaha I love YOU KRISTI DONNA!!!! <3333333 bf/dfl****
P.S. That was me, KRisti tht wrote that ... lol I lvoe you cayla! <333333
|
|
| Bored |
[03 Feb 2005|05:27pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
This Is The Night - Clay Akien |
] |
Yupp so today was good i enjoyed it i guess i found out a couple of hotties are at my lunch. For one the one i like to watch work out then the love of my life then the kid who is wicked confusing but i knew he was there already. Hehehe but the love of my life is the hottest one. o0ops. Anywayz last night saw the hockey game we won 9-3 it was a good game. o0o yea kristi and amanda saturday my cousin is playing at conway against north wanna come?? lol....Im dum. Lol. Im not gonna like anyone right now like looking. Cause It's just not working out too good so until they/ HE comes to me im just gonna look. L ikemy fantasy guy and the love of my likfe hehe i know i WILL NEVER have a chance with either of them but hey who is stopping me from looking. lol no one. BUt yea tomoorw going to kristi and chillen then sleeping over amandas. Were gonna watch friday night lights. lol football players are soo hott...Then saturday my cousin is playing at conway against north so im gonna cheer him on. So yea its at 550.. hehe well im done later <3
|
|
|
[17 Jan 2005|08:20pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 determined |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Promise-Simple Plan |
] |
American idol is on tomorrow!!! Yes im wicked excited!!! Two friggan hours of that shit!! And it's on wenesday too!!! Lol..I can't wait!!!
Yea so today was ok well it was awsome cause i hung out with jeff and kristi and shea...it was funny they came over here and we just sat around talking and then went to kristi and jeff thought it would be fun for rkisti to go sliding around the coner and the roads were snowy and icy so she did and we almost died lol...then we watched part of scary movie 3..i hate that movie i cant watch it without seeing his face...god no one gets it but me....umm then we played taboo it was me and shea vs kristi and jeff and kristi and shea were on the couch and me and jeff ont he chair and it was uncomfortable but hey w/e lol then we talked and then we dropped off shea and jeff then me and now im sitting here bored so yea....amanda slamed my hand in the door of rkistiu car and its gross looking and i cant move it sooo good job hun! a week b4 finals and when allt he notes will b taken i cant write lol w/e dont care...welll i hope this week goes good and that next semester turns out the way i want it to lets only hope cause thats all i have left...yea last night was funny as hell me kristi and amanda stayed up till like till 430 wathcin scaryu movies.....o mann wicker park was an amazing movie then we layed down to go to bed and i dunno what happened to me but w/e i thinik only rkisti knows what happened...um then she made me and amanda laugh sooo hard...but yea today was an awsome day but yea ill update tomorrow if im still alive hahah stupid bitches...later <3 cayla
|
|
| saturday night |
[16 Jan 2005|12:22pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 excited |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Take It All Away-Ryan Cabrera |
] |
THE PATS WON BABY!! CANT WAIT TILL NEXT WEEK WHEN WE KICK THE STEELERS ASSES!!
yea sooo last night i went to this club type thing and OMG i saw the twoo hottest gay guys ill ever see lol they were soo cute...i love gay guys there like the best guy freinds you could ever have. adn we were all danicng and shit and like awww he grab my ass haha i was like what haha and felt my leg up....man if i was a guy i would like go gay for him...but IM STAIGHT......but yea i had an aswome time...i cant wait for jr prom this yr its gonna be soo awsome and i really wanna go with this kid but if i dont i guess ts ok ill just deal...but i wanna dance hahah soo today kristi and amanda and mstt are coming over to watch the game gonna be some fun times lol tehn tomoorow its me kristi and i dunno maybe nolan and don but i know its shea and rob and randy o boy im confused i dunno ill have to talk to rkisti BUT HER PHONME IS BUSY and i dont know why lol she has twoo lines...colleen we gotta hang out!!! but yea tahts about it soo ill update lata <3 Cayla
THAT'S RIGHT I HAVE FRONT ROW TICKTES TO SEE MY BABY (RYAN CABRERA) IN CONCERT!
|
|
| Tuesday |
[11 Jan 2005|04:17pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crazy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Kelly Clarkson-Since You've Been Gone |
] |
well im still alive ppl! but anywayz todaY was an ok day came into school late did some work went to second period talked went on the bus talked went to third period actually did work in french...ummm went to lunch haha lunch gotta love it...me and colleen are in line getting food and the bitches took our table cause there cool i guess so we go sit down and they love to stair and shit and talk mad shit...well there not cool haha colleen told the funniest joke ever lol i loved it then went to fourth period and listened kinda lol then went home and took kristis bus home and we had some good times got called a slut a couple of times its cool tho then went to her house and went to my house and now im chillen wit kristi and were looking at prom dresses...not like im gonna go cause i wont have a date but the plan is its gonna be me kristi randy (her bf) amanda and josh....colleen you would goo babes but ur a northie lol YOU CAN BE MY DATE! lol if kenny will allow it lol <33 well yea tomorrow is ealry relase and we have an hour of each class and then lunch obv lol...then i dont know what im doin soo ill have to wait and see soo ill update lata soo im out <3 cayla
|
|
|
[10 Jan 2005|04:07pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 aggravated |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
God Must Hate Me- Simple Plan |
] |
Well well well i just read the funniest thing ever i love how ppl want to kill me lol i mean come on if you wanted to do it that badly you would have already done it i mean u say u wanna kick my ass so bad and shit but hey it hasnt happened yet and i mean you know where i live and shit so why dont u show up one day and kick my ass...i would love to see how it turned out really i would but hey everyone is all talk now soo whatever immature ppl make me smile
I havent updated in awhile or so but things are going better...i try not to be the center of atteniton and shit soo yea i was kinda blah all day until after school hehe kristi randy amanda you guys know what im talking about hehe so that made my day of course...only 13 more days left unitl next semester and i cant wiat but im gonna take kristi's and randys advice on this and i think its working cause i didnt say much at all this moring and boom this person came right up to me today but i dunno yet soo yea i hope it goes good cause i really like him...but yea found out some news today this mornig and on the bus ride to north...god i seriouldy fucking hate him soo much no one should ever do that ever but no some ppl might have the neeed to do that...godd that just pisses me off...and colleen i believ you so fuck them ok i love you bffl <333 but yea tomorrows a new day and i cant wait...wendsay is early release soo yea...well im gonna go so ill update late <3 cayla
|
|
| Bad start |
[14 Dec 2004|02:17pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 sick |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Perfect World- simple plan |
] |
So today i was all ready to go to school and have a possible good day but then all of a sudden i felt wicked sick so i was like uh w/e it will go away well right around 6:30 i had a sick feeling as in i was gonna throw up and i did but it was werid cause instead of reegular throw up it was blood so im not soo sure whats wrong with me its happened three times today...so i went to the doctors around 12 and she said that its possible that my molors (however you spell it) are comin in or something is wrong with my digestive system but see its most likly my mouth so yea but as of right now im doin fine...im just really tired...I really hate missing school so im not gonna anymore unless i throw up some more blood....yea anywayz...umm i dont really know what to say...uhh im still very pissed off from yesterday.....thats basically it so ill update lata <3 cayla
|
|
|
[13 Dec 2004|07:13pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
pissed off |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
shut up-simple plan |
] |
Me and colleen are friends again yay i friggan missed her soo much i love you hun!!!
Yea so about that story....well i mean i dont wanna get into any details....everyone who i actually trust and care about know the story...i dont feel like bashing derek on my lj ill bash him in person cause he's a fucking bastard who deserves no one...if this is how he treats all of the girls that come across him then im fucking sry for you...i told myself i would never try and get into another fucked up relationship or not go for the assholes but hey 1 outta 2 anit bad right....im soo done falling for assholes....thats why im pretty sure by the one that i found is not an asshole...its weird hes been infront of me face the whole time hmmmmm wonder what i did wrong...Oh wait it wasnt me that fucked it up it was all the lies surrounding it...I mean in the beggining it was fine until the middle where alll these lies came up now its perfectly fine....but im sooo fucking pissed off that he lied to me he told me he would never break my heart blah blah blah and all this shit and i thought he was sweet and awsome BUT in realtiy he SUCKS i fucking hope hes happy cause im not...i honestly cant tell u when ill be happy again...well i know one thing that will make me happy but i may have to wiat until second semteser for tha...well i dont even know if thats goin to happen either so w/e i gues....im dont post if u care but other than that leave me alone <3 Cayla
To all my friends that have been there for me thank you soo much it truly does mean alot to me i love you guys with all my heart and i NEVER wanna lose you guys...I love you!!! you don't know how happy and thankful i am to have great friends like you
|
|
|
[13 Dec 2004|02:39pm] |
|
Hhaha do i have a story for everyone
|
|
|
[12 Dec 2004|12:18pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 curious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
everytime-simple plan |
] |
Well yesterday was good i guess lol...uhu went to the mal like 30 mins b4 work to get jeff a birthday present..serioulsy stood in line for like 20 mins just to get his hat from lids...yea so did that i was 20 mins late for work cause like the mall caught on fire or somehtin i dunno major trafic...Uhh got to work got stuck in r-zone..i friggan love r -zone lol umm had pretty much fun while i was in there..uh then i got to go on break and i went to burger king and the guy thought i was like forgein cause i didnt know how to use the soda thing..hey its not my fault that it sucks...then went back to work and got off of work and then me and kristi went to cvs to get jeff a birthday card aww it was pink lol (plus it was a last mintue thing)Umm yea then we got everything together and it was like midnight and we went to his house cause he told us we could come over whenever we wanted so we thought ok lets go now so we went over there and he opened his presents haha i got him a all white pats hat and he looks friggan wicked good in it im liking it lol i hope he likes it i mean he took of his other hat and put it on so who knows...kristi got him condoms lol what a loser hes like there gonna expire hahah and i got him resses at work it was just funny i had fun for lke the 20 mins we were over there so yea...came home well went to wendys lol ummm went home watched tv went to bed and now im here and i have to work at 2 till 10 soo that should be fun considering im working with someone im pretty pissed off at but told him i wasnt! but w/e hes a fucking asshole as far as i know....ill see how i fell anywayz i dont want anyone but one guy and i dont even know why i tried with anyone esle and totally forgot about him..he is amazing and i only wanna be with him so i guess ill see how that goes too... well yea christmas is comin soon and i cant wiat...we just got our chirtmas tree last night but i ddint get to go cause i was working...hmm this christmas is gonna be hard i miss my grampy it's just hard but w/e....and things are not looking to good for someone else im close with but i wont get into that...well im gonna go now so ill update lata <3 cayla
|
|
| yay |
[10 Dec 2004|03:16pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
happy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
promise-simple plan |
] |
Well kinda alot has happened since my last update but im a lot happier then i was in my last entry well lets see
I have been hanign out with sarah latey and i must say i do miss the old times and im wicked happy that we are freinds agian and this time its gonna last lol cause i mean whoa baby she is alot happier too and im wicked happy for her lol i love you hun<333
Last night i talked to jeff for like 2 hours srtaight about basically everythign and now its all good and a bag of chips and im soo happy about that lol i miss talking to him too..aww tomorrow is his birthday..
Ummm me and colleen are still not talking..hope that will change....
working tonite 7-11 lol its friggan pimp...well im done ill update lata <33
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
|
|
|
[06 Dec 2004|02:36pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 stressed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Goodies-ciara |
] |
my livejournal is being gay i have to friggan redue it lol...god do i hate ppl there soo fucking dramtic..and i hate guys there all fucked up except for one inparticular but i gues that doenst matter i dont know what to do anymore.....
Yea im not too sure on whats going on...I can't fucking try any harder than i already am and u shouod know that..well maybe not cause you barley talk to me anymore...its like you lied to me about EVERYTHIGN you said to me from day one and i really dont know waht i should belieave...i thought it was going to be easy but as we contiuned to talk and not talk it got harder and harder and i dont think it was really supposed to get that hard...You told me things and i respected them i told you things and i hope you don't really say anything..But whatever happens in the end im just glad we met and were friends.....
On another note i can't take it anymore im soo friggan stressed out and drained and im soo tired from all this drama and i dont know how much of it i can take anymore..Im seriously on the edge...i mean im not tryin to sound emo or whatever it is we call ppl who are going through a hard time right now...I just really wish this wasn't happening right now i wish everything was ok and i wish no one fought over stupid shit...But whatever i can't really help cause no matter what i do it never seems to be enough .....
I don't think i've seriously cried so much in my life...I'm not in the mood anymore to talk or do anything anymore so whatever.....
Well im dont for now i don't know what else to say so ill upate later i guess
|
|
|
[05 Dec 2004|12:11pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Beyonce ft sean paul- baby boy |
] |
I fucked up once again and i hope colleen can listen to me and see where im coming from i understand were she is comin from and i hope in the end it works out but i just gotta wait and see...umm yea i get to work tonite at 6 to 10 which is more like 6- 11 lol but hey whatever i dont really care, tomorrow i wont be in school cause i have a feild trip for early child hood all day so im excited about that...um yea everythign is ok i guess i mean it can totally be better but ill have to iat and see if that catuually happens like this guy i mean ive been talking about him for awhile and kristi gave me some good news on it but i dont know if it will ever become somthing else besides just freidns i really hope it does but again i have to wiat and see what happens....well im gonna go take a shower and starighten my hair and then relax until i have to go to work so ill update lata...amanda ill give u the money for the cd tuesday when i get my cheak cashed ok?...i had soo much fun sleeping over your house lol it was a blast gotta do it agian lol bffl......umm yea well im done later <3
Yupp i don't know if anyone knows this but ive been going thorugh a pretty rough time right now...well actually NO ONE knows why but im gonna keep it that way cause no one needs to really know its between me and my family...but even tho i havent told anyone ive been feeling pretty lost, lonely, forgotten, and being taken for granted and i just wanna thank
CHELSEY CHRISTIAN-for being there for me she has mad this time easy for me even tho she doenst know whats goin on she just makes me smile and she makes me happy and im soo glad that shes there for me she just knows the right things to say and its amazing lol..haha you guys are gonna think like im inlove with her..and i am BUT its a best friend kinda love haha but i love you chels and im glad were close...if u EVER need anything call me or what not im here for u <333 bffl..Just remember i love you way more than ryan cabrera and thats alot! lol
KRISTI NEWCOMB- I love you as well cause ur obv my best friend and i need you and if i didnt have u as a best friend to be there for me and tell me wrong from right and guide me then i would be totally and comltety lost i mean yea we have our differecnse but hey thats what makes us best friends...same with chels if u ever need anything u know my number call me and ill be tehre i love you soo much and we will be best freinds forever NO MATTER WHAT..im keeping my word<33 bffl
AMANDA McGUIRE- god do i friggan love you lol i know we havent talked in yrs and such but ur aslo always there for me and when im down ur there to listen and not judge me and im thankful for that and im so glad were haning out again and talking ALOT more again and ur friggan hilaiours lol gotta love ur halloween custom...but yea to everyone im here for u and u know my number so friggan call me bitch lol <33 bffl
Colleen Warren- I know where not exacly best friends anymore or hopefully yet and i know were kinda on the rocks right now and were not exac;ty friends either BUT i will do anything in my power to change that you were and in my mind still one fo the greatest best friends ever and i will NEVER forget you and when i needed someoen you were there for me ALWAYS and i know i wasnt there for u taht oen night but i regret that night soo much and i will NEVER EVER assume anything agian trust me on that one im sry for all the shit i put u through and im sry for all the shit that YOU have to go through but i don't think i can handle to loose you completly i really hope that we can eventually get passed this and beomce best friends agin...I know u might not care that i just said all that stuff or u migjt just brush it off but i mean every word of it i just hope u can see that
I Truly love all you guys and i will never forget you
|
|
|
[03 Dec 2004|12:51pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crappy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Ryan Cabrera-True |
] |
Didnt go to school today b/c i had to stay home and watch my sick sister...so pretty much all i did was sleep watched santa clause 2 and took a shower and starigthedn my hair, kristi is comin over after school and hen were hangin out..tomorrow i have work but im wokring with kristi so it should be fun..ummm thats pretty much it i guess..but this was the higlight of my day i did that love generater thing and it came out with dancing so i was sooo excited cause i friggan LOVE dancing!! well thast all ill update later
omg i tried it agin with my second favorite color and i got the best one ever!!!
|
|
| bored |
[02 Dec 2004|03:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
jesse mccartney- beautiful soul |
] |
Im wicked bored and i have nothign to do so i decided i would upsate....uhhh not alot has happened since my last entry....i still feel the same so w/e not like any one cares....i think that is funny how i try and talk to someone about what im going through and they just ignore the fact that im actually there....i find it prettty amusing but whatever....anywayz today was an ok day first period i was in the day care so thats always fun then second period i was in math thats the same thing as always then i went to north and had french and worked on the dialouge and i got it all done then i had lunch that was ok then i went back to french same old same old crap...then i went back to south and had us history got our quizzes back form yesterday i passed and i didnt even watch the movie b/c i was sleeping but hey i passed then i feel asleep again and i woke up b/c kyle doenst shut up lol then i went home and now im here in my red sox pj's doing nothing cause i have nothign to do... but thats it ill update lata im out
TODAY IS BRITNEY SPEARS BIRTHDAY!!! I FRIGGAN LOVE HER SHE IS MY IDOL!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITNEY!
I don't care how gay or dumb that sounds
|
|
|
[01 Dec 2004|02:25pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
crappy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
the power puff girls on tv |
] |
Feel like crap.....I havent been feeling myself latley and its just really werid.....o well..schools ok work is GREAT and me and colleen are talking again which is deff a plus...other than that everything sucks and is going downhill and i dont know how much longer i can deal with this...im out lata
|
|
|
[29 Nov 2004|03:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 annoyed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Breathe,Stretch,Shake-Mase |
] |
Well its offical im so done and so over jeff he needs to fucking i dunno he hates me and im a psychotic bitch...wow that killed my day....He was seriously being fucking stupid i dont know why he said it i dont even know what the fuck i did to be honest....What ever if thats how he wants to fucking act and just forget about me then its fine ill forget about him and it still stands with my previous entry..id ont fucking care im seriously done with him i cant even belieave that i put myself through all that just so it could end up like this...really cool.....Now derek is a different story i can't get all mad at him for nothing and im not gonna im happy with just being his friend yea i obv like him but im not gonna push anything if its not gonna happen in the end so im gonna leave that up to him if he wants to then hey im fine with then but im deffinlty fine with just being friends so i guess ill just have to wiat and see what happens with that..i mean of course i hope it goes good but we will see....anywayz today im working 5:30-10 so i guess that should be fun....after that me and kristi are going to wendys lol i love that place....well i dont know what else to update so im just gonna go so ill update lata i guess
I think the only good part about this whole vaca or w/e you wanna call it was that me and colleen are starting to talk again which is deffintly good so i hope we can get through it and be best friends again
|
|
| hmm |
[28 Nov 2004|01:05pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Ryan Cabrera-True |
] |
Yea don't really have anything to say im not in the greatest mood but o well don't really feel like telling ANYONE what my problem is b/c they obv wouldnt understand......Yea this whole "relationship" thing is total bullshit i mean wtf seriously what is going on??? i don't even know..i guess ill just give it some time....BUT there is this kid that like 3 ppl say i should up with..i mean i deff would and everything its just i don't know about him i mean i havent even really talked to him but im hoping i will soon and talk alot more and MAYBE something will happen i mean this is like me trying to go out with ryan cabrera its like not possible...but im gonna try..i asked kristi to get some information for me and hopefully she will ill ask her again if she will....yea other then that i dont know whats gonna happen with me cause im soo confused and messed up right now and ive actually never felt this way b4 ive never felt this alone...ehh w/e...im gonna go maybe ill update lata if theres something important to update
*EDIT* Well its offical ims o fucking done with fucking guys there all fucking jerks ALL OF THEM i dont fucking care who you are...if your a guy your a fucking asshole no joke....jeff is a fuckign asshole i hate him and i dont care what anyone says i fuckign gave everything i told him everythig and i got what??hmm NOTHIGN...hmm derek led me on and decides to talk to me about someoen he lieks and obv it wasnt me it was tayna i love how guys think its ok to tell you they like you then decied to talk to u about someone esle they like....very cool let me tell you..hmmm NO its fucking wrong im soo done trying to find someone you know why...cause its fucking pointless and it hurts and im done...so inconclusion just leave me the fuck alone...im fucking seirously done...i don't even wanna talk about it so w/e
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
ryans_girl_27's journal